ABOUT NOW – I am in the middle of getting everything untangled. It’s been a muddled mess, but I feel I can see the individual cords now, and can unravel things to get the peaceful, organized and predictable life I have craved. Months of steady brain skill exercise at Breakthroughs is bringing the reward. I have good coping skills. My judgment is improving, and my self-esteem is good.
RENOVATING – The house is under renovation. It’s the start of week three of a 3.5 week reno. Whew – Almost there. But it’s been a pain keeping track of the things we need close by (like paperwork) (OK and toothbrushes and a clean towel.) and things we can store for later, and things we can outright sell in a yard sale. I truly pray the 3rd yard sale will see more things go. It’s kind of sad when few people want your treasures. Sniff.
HOUSE FOR SALE ! The house will go on the Real Estate Market by May 1st. I hope it will fetch the asking price. It’s going to be a real gem when Major Decorating is done with it. I look forward to a good ending, and an early closing. Hopefully even May or June.
WHERE WILL WE GO ? Then we need a new place to go to. The girls are staying with me. But I will have to be able to afford the new place whether they pay room n board or not. Afterall, one day they will make homes with their husbands, and I will have to make my own way in the world too. I want a luxury condo. But I’ll settle for a useful condo for now. Luxury next year – I want to move in the 45 Deg at Columbia and King. YAY.
MATRIMONIAL FUNDS. I have to appear in court on May 7.2009. Our lawyer can’t decide who to give my money to, since all he has left in trust is MY money. But Revenue Canada and Sandy’s bankruptsy trustee seems to think they can have some. So I must appear and make a case to the good judge. I pray it will ALL come my way. It is certainly all owed to me. And more. But I will settle for what’s left, and I trust the judge will see it that way too.
INCOME – Since supplemental income from Employment Benefits ran out, I’ve had boarders to supply the shortfall. However, the boarders have now “run out” as well, and I can’t meet my current financial obligations. I still provide for my two semi-dependent daughters, even though I am very dependent on them to help with the bills. To their credit, they do this without complaint. They live at home for different reasons, since they are not ready to take full responsibility for themselves as yet.
EXPENSES – I tithe, I give offerings as led, I pay up the mortgage, property taxes, heat, hydro, phone, insurance for house and car, gas for the car, (no out of towns drives) and often get food from the foodbank. We have no internet, no cable and no landline. They are luxuries. The fact is that there is nothing left over after meeting the above expense list. Nothing. And there is usually a shortfall to meet that list.
WORKING – When I do my job, I do it as unto Him. He knows I give my best attention and use all the gifts and talents He placed in me, to do a good job for Him. I have asked Him to put me at the right pay rate, and for it to be a salary. I guess there must be a reason for His delay. He knows I have committed to my employer. I am there for the long haul. It often gives me pleasure to go beyond the call of duty when needed. God has given mighty gifts to my co-workers, and I love to use my gifts to let theirs bloom big. God lets me be the wind beneath their wings. I am glad to do it, and I am good at it. So I am asking the Lord, may I please have a raise? 
<< yes, that’s a smiley face, asking my Father/Daddy, and my Provider, with love and respect.
So there’s much in the tangle. But God is my helper, and I have the sense of accomplishment in me already even though it is yet to be accomplished. That’s a good thing!
Til next time.
