I weep. My hot tears rush down my cheeks and drip from my chin. I ache. I love you. How can I help you? I watch you, day by day, weaving your way through life, always on the move, afraid to sit still long enough to feel. To feel anything. But wait! You are moving the wrong way. I shout. I can help! I know something! I can see a better way. Please! I wail, knowing that my wisdom falls on deaf ears and a hard heart. Everywhere you go, you smash into things. Hard things. Hurtful things. Horrible things. Situations that burn you, sear you, break you, make you cry and wail and weep. Times that confuse you, people that betray you, a world that can’t see you, but ruthlessly uses you up anyway. I can’t stand it anymore. I love you! I can’t stand to see you this way! I wail louder. I add thunder to my voice as I try to stop you from racing into pain one more time. The thunder rolls everywhere. You don’t know that all my love is wrapped up in the thunder. You don’t know that the thundering voice is my most fervent attempt to save you from another horrible, hurtful situation. I love you – I love you! I shout. You run away from my thunder. Is it because you just can’t believe that anyone could love you so much? Believe it! Believe it! Yes! I LOVE YOU. I want to hold you. I want to kiss your tears away and give you a splendid life, one day at a time. One minute at a time. I curl up into a sobbing ball, because you wouldn’t receive my love. – - – I watch from a distance. I see you go down again, into another dark place. You glance over your shoulder, hoping I won’t see you. But I see you . . . I close my cloak around my shoulders, shuddering as I feel the cold that surrounds you. I can’t go there. I already escaped from there once. Long ago. I won’t go back. The price is too high. Now it’s up to you. You have to see Truth. Only when you see Truth will you have the key that will set you free too. Desire Truth. Desire Wisdom. Desire Freedom. You CAN have them. I can wait for you, here. Come back to me. To Warmth. To Light. To Love. To Truth. You can do it. Just take one step. One little step. One step at a time. And then another. Have hope. I’ll be here. I won’t abandon you. I’ll be here. I promise. Because I love you.
